So we're coming down to the end of week 3 ayy? How exciting~ time really flys~~:D

Anyway, so everyone knows about my ups and downs, mostly downs but I am picking my paste up to keep up with the busy world! It's about time I realised that dwelling on the past isn't going to get me anywhere, so I'm just going to take the baby steps and start over again! And to begin with… (as you might have noticed) I changed my blogger's appearance~~~ How exciting, brand new look really freshens up everything. Most of the information is still under construction so my bad if it looks a bit messy, I'll try to fix everything up later! And I have a goal for this new skin, now that you can see the tagboard quite easy unlike the last one where it is kind of hidden--- it'd be great to have some more comments on there instead of just Miss Penny Chen's xD. I hope the new skin isn't too weird, it's only temporary until Ben finish making one for me, a theme that is completely personalised… I hope =/

I just remembered something, I promised that I was going to put a quote at the end of each entry… sorry, I completely forgot about it :P. it's a big week for me, everything is just so messed up at the moment but thanks to those who cheered me on and made me laugh and smile. Since most of you knows about my super dramatic week, I guess there really isn't much left to explain so guess I'll see you next week then ^^

"I've got a different approach to dealing with emotion.
Keeping control of my boat, while drifting on this ocean.
Keeping my head to the sky, keeping tears out of my eyes.
Unless happiness be the reason that I decide to cry.
And life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
Stand up now, stand up now and I promise not before long." – Ne-Yo: Better Today

YuMi

I know I promised I won't cry, but I did… because it really hurts. After all this type, after all that we have been through you'd given up. After all that I realised all I have fought for and given up for is for nothing. I promised to keep the necklace and a phone along with the key ring, but understand that I cannot look at them everyday knowing the hurtful past embed inside them, knowing that all the happiness are now just memories… memories I hope I can rewind. I cannot keep those things with me all the time because they are memories that can hurt, memories that can scar forever. I can no long face you… knowing that I can't hold your hands anymore as if they were mine, I can't rest my head on your shoulder, I can't kiss you on the cheek and tell you I love you… and I can't call you "Honey" anymore. And it hurts just to think about it, to realise that you are no longer mine. I can't keep any fragments of you with me, because it hurts. It's like a sharpened knife, piercing my heart and leaving it to bleed.

Everything I've done… I did it because it hurts.

YuMi

Update from the end of week of school~ Yahooooo~~~! Assignments are swarming in like bees and I'm not even freaking out single bit (funny huh). Once again, another busy week, still trying to adapt to the new time table and gambling the option of going home early on a Wednesday afternoon. It's fun going to Garden City every Wednesday right? I think I'm just about to get sick of it at this stage ==" there really isn't much to do at good old Garbo if you think about it… well, not for me at least since I'm not the type of girl who'd go on a crazy shopping spree of clothes and accessories.

Anyway~ so it's the weekend and I miss Chao… A LOT): this may sound like an exaggeration but I also have this phobia of losing him whenever he's not around! I freak out majorly! Life sucks ><
Going to QUT open day tomorrow, hopeful find out some useful information about my future career and also skip work! In a month time I will be going to Stradbroke Island for a biology trip of looking at coastlines, sand dunes and mangroves. Sounds all too exciting I know… NOT! Hopefully I won't be as sick as a dog by then… having fevers during maths class two days in a role is probably not the best thing to experience. Trying to concentrate on what's going on and also feeling like your head is about explode is probably the last thing you want in your Maths B class. Thank God I'm still alive!

I was given a new nickname… of an animal: Hedgehog! Don't ask me why but now I have to roll myself into a ball to avoid a certain llama from spitting on me. I feel like I've been taking back to kindergarten~ except less innocent xD. Well, it's almost ten so the hedgehog's gotta roll~ I shall chat with you again next week! Cheers

YuMi the hedgehog

I think I am just about dead as a result for pushing myself too far in the athletics carnival. Since it is the last athletics carnival at B.A.C I might as well make the most out of it right? So here's the list of what I did and I'll explain each in detail later:

• 100m sprint
  
• 200m ½ sprint
  
• High jump
  
• Long jump
  
• Javelin
  
• Short put
  
• Discus
  

We switched to the bigger stadium for the first time since I got here at grade 8… ANZ stadium at sunnybank-ish. Believe me; it was damn cold on that day! Anyway~ as I was saying… participating in as many events as I can was my goal of the day.

First up was the 100m sprint. I told myself that I was going to jog it… but I ended up bolting as fast as I can (didn't really get me anywhere though) and I was trailing at about 4^th position while about 30 meters behind me a pack of slow motion joggers danced their way across the track. I was about 2 meters to the finishing line when Laura who was in 3^rd positioned stopped right before the finish line. I didn't have time to react to the sudden action so I went past and came 3^rd. WTF?

200m: the last incident did not repeat itself (although I hope it had). The group was broken up into 2 heats… the serious one and the fun run one. And I happen to be dragged into the serious one… I knew I was going to come VERY last if I'd gone in there like that… my brilliant brain told me to drag my house and vice captain into it as well (who I knew were slow). As a result, the fast people bolted off like a jack rabbit while my 2 captains were completely in their own little world of skipping across the field. As a result, the jack rabbits were about 50 meters ahead of me while the Alices in wonder land were about 50 meters behind me… leaving me stranded in the middle. Mind you, I did do my best in that race with the knowledge I wasn't going to get anywhere close to the finishing line along with the rest of the group! At least I wasn't the very last so it's all~good~

High jump: nothing much here… didn't even make the first height and ran RIGHT INTO the pole!

Long jump: not much either except for A LOT of sand crap!

Javelin: of course I didn't make the top! But hey, at least I didn't stab myself or anyone else with the super long stick!

Short put: the ball is damn heavy (duh), it didn't get very far at all~~

Discus: so we get 2 throw at a time and 2 attempts (so 4 altogether). First throw – went out of bound, almost hit the teacher. Second throw – counted as a foul because it went right and attacked the net, everyone who was lining outside the next all died. 3^rd throw – everyone ducked as if the disc is going anywhere outside the net (way to boost up my self-esteem guys). 4^th throw – finally landed somewhere where it is not dangerous for human beings!

So there you go~ my exciting last ever athletics carnival! Now I'm not there type of person who exercises regularly so days like this where I push myself a bit too far than I should means consequences. First of all, my respiratory system; since it's been a while it has such a rapid air exchange, that night I couldn't breathe without sending throbbing pain to my chest. Second, my whole body was sore the next morning including my back and neck. I had a lot of trouble getting out of bed and for the rest of the day I cannot laugh because if I do it would really hurt around my waist area… talk about painful laughs! And last, I felt really air headed all day today! Thanks a lot, the person who created competitions so athletes… GO DIE IN A HOLE!!!

YuMi

Well, school has started so I guess my BlogSpot is going to be like a weekly diary for me now… outlining the boring crap occurred throughout the week (if I even bothered, that is). So what happened in week one? Started on Tuesday… Chao didn't come until Thursday~ Friday was free dress for NAIDOC (stands for National Aboriginal and Islander something something Committee). So everyone rocked up with red or black and a small portion wearing yellow. And we sat for about an hour in the morning wasting our time listening to pointless stuff about this event (just like the ANZAC stories… over and over again). The weather is getting very cold and for some reason I still wear a short sleeve top to school on Friday… wait, I couldn't find a matching jacket, that's right! So I was shivering when we lined up at assembly… good thing was I wasn't alone at this gig. There were several others and some even wore shorts/skirts~ talk about showing more skin for the boys xD.

I am in love with the sun… I don't care about skin cancer! You know that feeling when you get sitting under the sun during a cold day~~ it's nice (: it probably would have been better if the wind hadn't been blowing. The stupid wind completely raped my hair, I call windy days my bad hair days. Even though I have short hair now, Chao still complains about the fringe which always hang in front of my left eye because he's always the person who's brushing it aside (^///^). Now that I have a phone, I have a habit of staring of my phone screen, waiting for either the caller's ID or message that says Honey! to pop up. The photo below... I guess you can already tell by now who its' from :P. Thank you, Honey <3

Anyway, I have a plan to post a quote or song lyric at the end of my every post… just something that is sweet (: until next time, ciao!
"Lightning don't strike the same place twice. When you and I say goodbye, I felt the angels cry"-Angels Cry by Mariah Carey ft. NeYo

YuMi

It has never occurred to me that this is how it's going to end… without even the last chance to see your face and feel your warm hands or even receive a last hug and kiss, instead it was just a simple and cold "goodbye". Since when has fate decided to draw us apart? Like what a person has said to me before, "love does not conquer all". If we think realistically, it's true. No matter how much a couple loves each other, if there is no way that they can be together, then all love are accounted as useless. Life is not a fairy tale; it doesn't always have happily ever after and it usually is harder than you think. Although I'd come to the realisation that nothing is ever going to be perfect, I never stopped hoping. I never stop wishing that there was still a tiny ray of light in the complete dark place…. I never stopped wishing that you will be by my side forever.

Honey, stop saying that I can get better guys, stop saying that there are other guys out there who can treat me better… because I don't want better, I want you. When you stumbled into my life like a bomb, I realised that nothing will ever work out for me with anyone else. I even tried to move on… but to found myself missing you even more. It wasn't just you that had left me; it was my feelings and my heart to. I didn't take long for me to tell things aren't going to be the same… and by being unstable all the time means I cause a lot of trouble for those around me, they are the one who have to put up with my childish fits. I need to learn become stronger but I found myself being so attached to you that detachment is almost impossible. Being with you has become a need rather than want…

YuMi

Say again… I've been pretty lazy~ so I've watched like 2 movies this holiday, Toy Story 3 and Eclipse. Believe it or not, I cried when I watched Toy Story and it became retarded when I TRIED to wipe my tears when I was wearing 2 glasses (My glasses and the 3D glasses) "6-eyed freak" you might say. I didn't even think the 3D make much effect for me; the only difference was that it was less blurry than without it. What is the deal with people loving 3D anyway? TVs are coming out in 3D!!! It's like "Ooooh, I feel like I can touch it, but I can't~~~", honestly… this world is one deal of a crazy mess! Moving on to Eclipse, I'd probably the best of the 3 released so far… mainly because Taylor Lautner is half naked throughout the whole film *nose bleeds*. I mean, DAYUM~ compare to R-Pazz, who is just… bleh! TEAM JACOB ALL THE WAY YEAH~~~~!

Hmm… have I mentioned that I'm pranking someone? Like SERIOUSLY pranking? Okay, maybe I went a little bit too far *shifty eyes*… ALRIGHT ALRIGHT!!! I admit it, I went overboard lah… I thought I can just prank call and hang up… I really didn't know the person would come chasing after me like a crazy mutt. And then after 4 days (and about 105 text messages) finally decided to call and confess. Now that is just plain creepy… would you really fall in love with some who you haven't even met and only known for 4 freaking days?! You just don't do that, man… that's unethical~ it's not like this "fictional" person I made up is your Juliet because you haven't even met her. And if that's not enough, here's more! In the same night after his first confession call… he called about 20 times at least. Gosh! It's called personal privacy! And believe me; I'm not having fun with this anymore. I keep thinking up reasons to get him off my back once and for all BUT IT AIN'T WORKING!!!!! Once a stalker, always a stalker… so this isn't the first time I reject people, let alone rejecting a person who I've pranked. But hey, I really had no idea that this retard is going to cling like a koala o_O". I'm currently fishing for some new plans to get this crazy stalker off my back… any ideas?

YuMi