Wednesday, July 14, 2010

It has never occurred to me that this is how it's going to end… without even the last chance to see your face and feel your warm hands or even receive a last hug and kiss, instead it was just a simple and cold "goodbye". Since when has fate decided to draw us apart? Like what a person has said to me before, "love does not conquer all". If we think realistically, it's true. No matter how much a couple loves each other, if there is no way that they can be together, then all love are accounted as useless. Life is not a fairy tale; it doesn't always have happily ever after and it usually is harder than you think. Although I'd come to the realisation that nothing is ever going to be perfect, I never stopped hoping. I never stop wishing that there was still a tiny ray of light in the complete dark place…. I never stopped wishing that you will be by my side forever.

Honey, stop saying that I can get better guys, stop saying that there are other guys out there who can treat me better… because I don't want better, I want you. When you stumbled into my life like a bomb, I realised that nothing will ever work out for me with anyone else. I even tried to move on… but to found myself missing you even more. It wasn't just you that had left me; it was my feelings and my heart to. I didn't take long for me to tell things aren't going to be the same… and by being unstable all the time means I cause a lot of trouble for those around me, they are the one who have to put up with my childish fits. I need to learn become stronger but I found myself being so attached to you that detachment is almost impossible. Being with you has become a need rather than want…

YuMi