Monday, July 26, 2010

I know I promised I won't cry, but I did… because it really hurts. After all this type, after all that we have been through you'd given up. After all that I realised all I have fought for and given up for is for nothing. I promised to keep the necklace and a phone along with the key ring, but understand that I cannot look at them everyday knowing the hurtful past embed inside them, knowing that all the happiness are now just memories… memories I hope I can rewind. I cannot keep those things with me all the time because they are memories that can hurt, memories that can scar forever. I can no long face you… knowing that I can't hold your hands anymore as if they were mine, I can't rest my head on your shoulder, I can't kiss you on the cheek and tell you I love you… and I can't call you "Honey" anymore. And it hurts just to think about it, to realise that you are no longer mine. I can't keep any fragments of you with me, because it hurts. It's like a sharpened knife, piercing my heart and leaving it to bleed.

Everything I've done… I did it because it hurts.

YuMi