Wednesday, August 12, 2009
♥ Good or bad?
I'm not sure if I regret ending it. Since yesterday afternoon, everyone has been calling him names and telling me that it isn't worth it. They said not to think about it and just focus on something else, easy to say but much much harder to do.
Just when thought I'd cry enough, tears well up again. It hasn't even been a full day, but I already want to take back all the words I've said. I didn't get much sleep last night, for some reason I was perfectly conscious. I stayed up pretty much the whole night thinking, and when I finally felt like sleeping my alarm broke the silence in my mind. It was 6 in the morning, not a good time to cry but as soon as I turned on my mp3 my heart ached. Sometimes it's just so scary that songs can describe your exact situation, it's scary that it can pinpoint how you feel and lyrics that says what you wanted to say perfectly. I cried silently while listening to the lyrics, mouthing the words when I know them. I thought I was going emo, or maybe I am! I was too desperate, too weak... And getting no sleep isn't enough, I have lost all my appetite for the day~!
I thought I'd go out for a walk today, clear my mind for a bit. Joshua (who used to be my neighbour) had told me on msn last night that he'll meet up with me today and have a chat to make me feel better. I thought...why not? So we walked around the park behind the town house and he was tried his best to talk me out of my misery. But it didn't seem to work so he took a packet of poker cards out of his pocket and did some magic trick. And I was so amazed at what he could do that I'd forgotten all about what had happened yesterday. He'd let me draw a random card, then I look at it, put it behind my back. And then he'd know what card it is just by looking in my eyes... Yes I was pretty surprised. He did a tons of others like spread the card out randomly facing down and predict the card I'm going to pick. So I was pretty distracted for the day, felt much better =D
Thank you to those who've support me and talked to me to make me feel better. I don't know if this is it good or bad? This break up made me realise how many friends around me really care about me. I feel even more loved than before~! x3
Thank you so much~:
Just when thought I'd cry enough, tears well up again. It hasn't even been a full day, but I already want to take back all the words I've said. I didn't get much sleep last night, for some reason I was perfectly conscious. I stayed up pretty much the whole night thinking, and when I finally felt like sleeping my alarm broke the silence in my mind. It was 6 in the morning, not a good time to cry but as soon as I turned on my mp3 my heart ached. Sometimes it's just so scary that songs can describe your exact situation, it's scary that it can pinpoint how you feel and lyrics that says what you wanted to say perfectly. I cried silently while listening to the lyrics, mouthing the words when I know them. I thought I was going emo, or maybe I am! I was too desperate, too weak... And getting no sleep isn't enough, I have lost all my appetite for the day~!
I thought I'd go out for a walk today, clear my mind for a bit. Joshua (who used to be my neighbour) had told me on msn last night that he'll meet up with me today and have a chat to make me feel better. I thought...why not? So we walked around the park behind the town house and he was tried his best to talk me out of my misery. But it didn't seem to work so he took a packet of poker cards out of his pocket and did some magic trick. And I was so amazed at what he could do that I'd forgotten all about what had happened yesterday. He'd let me draw a random card, then I look at it, put it behind my back. And then he'd know what card it is just by looking in my eyes... Yes I was pretty surprised. He did a tons of others like spread the card out randomly facing down and predict the card I'm going to pick. So I was pretty distracted for the day, felt much better =D
Thank you to those who've support me and talked to me to make me feel better. I don't know if this is it good or bad? This break up made me realise how many friends around me really care about me. I feel even more loved than before~! x3
Thank you so much~:
- Shaunna - For all your cheering talk
- Alex - For you warm hugs
- N G - For backing me up when I fall
- Michelle - For been there for me the whole time
- Penny - For letting me know that you are there
- Laura - For letting me cry in your arms.
- Darleen - For being honest with me all the time and your comedy DVD
- Mary - For the quote that make me feel better "Don't cry for a guy, let a guy cry for you. Cause girls give & forgive, but guys get & forget"
- hsinkai (Josh) - For being so kind to take a walk with me and talk me out of my misery. Also for the amazing magic card game and brightened my day.
YuMi
4:26 PM
