Okay. So I've been holding it in until this point where I'm about to explode… and it isn't even about me~! Doesn't that just sound strange? I mean, why should I be the one who's fixing everything when the problem isn't even mine? I didn't try to fix it because I know I can't… but I did do my best to make it sound less suffering. But hey… I just realised that all my effort and time has been wasted BIG TIME!!! I've said all I can and it's not working… then WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSE TO SAY!!!!

I really don't get the deal of emo people, I really don't. As far as I can tell, all they do is cry, wear black, cut themselves, always sees the negative side of everything, don't appreciate life and over react even to the teeniest things. I say, instead of sit there and sulk… why don't you get off you lazy asses and fix the damn problem already? Crying and whining ain't going to fix a damn thing except for causing problem for those around you. I know life is not easy and life is not fair, because it's not meant to be easy and fair. If it is, trust me, people like yourselves won't exist. And the reason you exist isn't solely because life is a challenge, it's because you are too coward to face it. You expect others to fix your problems up for you, but then you can't get their attention so you hurt yourself so you can get that little sympathy. You know what, that plan isn't going to work for long… sooner or later it will back fire and you will end up being all alone or killing yourself. Now I don't mind you guys go kill yourself… I really don't give a damn. But you don't? You never slice yourself at the spot where it can kill you… and when you slit you wrist, you always do it horizontally… if you really wanted to end you own life, you'd cut vertically at where you pulse is DEEPLY. I think all you really are doing is enjoying the pain… which makes you sound really creepy and more ever, like a faggot.

So to all emo people, I have one thing to say to you and all of your problems… all the offensive crap above~ just ignore them… oh have those words hurt you already? Oh I'm sorry… but too bad xD
You'll just have to suck it up and deal with it, because the world isn't going to change for you (unless you're Justin Bieber, you might have a little chance… anyway, that's not the point) ~ you have to adjust your attitude to suit the world… don't consider yourself more important than the rest of us. Having a few scars and wounds doesn't make you more important, so don't count on it. So it's time to wake up, stop complaining, stop doing useless shit and start fixing yourself up! Because if you can't fix up your own attitude, then NO ONE can fix you…

YuMi

Time: 12:05 PM

Place: school, bible class

Hmm….. Writing another blog entry in class may not be the best idea. Despite all of my procrastination last night, I have managed to wake up early in the morning to do something about it… and sad enough that it is still not fully completed. Sad enough I am still going to fail this like I was expected to and this isn't the only one that I'll be failing! Either way, I reckon the by the time in finish high school (which is about 6 months away) I'm going to come out with a epic fail title… fail~ do realise though I was sure I can make it there, looks like I'm going to have to break that thought by now… I mean, I see no more hope in my academic skills. Sure enough there are times where I thought I can succeed but after each time of disappointment I just kind of give up on the positive attitude. Perhaps it really is about to where I face the truth… I AM AN ACADEMIC FAIL!!!

Alright, alright… I think this should be enough procrastination in class for the day. Lunch is next, woohoo~~!

YuMi

It's about seven thirty at a Sunday night. I have an assignment due tomorrow and I am still procrastinating. You know, I never really like the subject Chemistry. I was never good with science to begin with, let alone spending 2 years of my senior life doing it. I've manage to survive it somehow but I don't know for how long am I going to last. Finishing off grade 11 with ALL Cs is never a good sign; I don't even want to imagine how my OP is going to turn out. For most universities, the OP cut off for nursing is about 14. Now that sounds pretty easy… if I can even get there, that is. I'm now on the verge of failing 2 assignments and I am still struggling with the chemistry one… I think I'm gonna DIE!!!!

I skipped work today~ yeah… spent my whole day working on Chemistry ERT and I am STILL not done with it. I hear you asking why I still have to post another blog… well, I don't know really. I guess I'm the kind of person who has absolutely no self control. If you have ever seen the video where they put a marshmallow in front of a bunch of 4 years old kids and told them to wait for 15 minutes, if I was to be put to that test while I was 4, I'd probably snatch and eat the marshmallow before the adult can even give the instructions. So which is the reason why I cannot stop myself from going on facebook and now typing this crap. Seriously though, I have a feeling that I am actually doing worse than last year. I kind of just let myself go and become pretty lazy~ they say that year 12 is much more stressful than 11 because it is all summative, but for some reason I'm actually more laid back than last year… strange enough I'm still getting the same type of marks as last year… funny huh~

And now I'm running out of stuff to talk about…. Oh great~ I haven't even reach 400 words yet and my goal was 600! I used to be able to write 600 easily, that was the time where I read a lot (guess reading does help you write). And now… a chemistry report took me almost 3 FULL days and I'm still out of reach of the required number. Seriously though, when you know absolutely nothing about the topic you're going to write about, there will be 2 possible outcomes. One: your writing goes in circles, there's not a point to it and you keep coming back to the same question. Or two: you write about 2 sentences and are out of ideas. I think my current Chemistry report is a bit of both. In essence, I don't even have a clue as to what I'm writing about… science is definitely not my thing! Okay, 500 words~~ almost there… must talk about something else! Oh by the way, I did start writing this blog at seven thirty and it is now eleven thirty. See how great my procrastination skills are? I can even do that to my blog xD. Honestly though… this is kind of embarrassing~: P

Alright, maybe I should close facebook, maybe I should log off msn and maybe… I should get back to my Chemistry EEI and Maths B assignment and Home Economics essay draft. And maybe I need to finish off this posts and get back to my work before I fail everything… wish me luck (:

YuMi

I know life has its ups and downs. And I know that things aren't going to be perfectly smooth… but I honestly can't understand what kind of mind game God is trying to play with me. I mean, of course, life isn't just a simple glide, you face the strong winds and the rain and sometimes the thunderstorm~ But hey, the only way to survive the storm is to keep on going right?

What made me realise these things was the unfortunately event that'd occurred on Friday afternoon. Like usual Fridays, I take my dog along with me spend some 'quality time' with my precious boyfriend. But this afternoon I got unlucky. My mum decided to drive by and stalked me. And bad enough for me she got the image that she did expect to see. And then, I got my first (and last) strike~ so I thought I might spend the rest of the afternoon being depressed. But Chao didn't allow that. He held me in his arms and encouraged me, tell me that everything is going to be okay and he's going to stay with me no matter what. I don't get why some of my friends still don't understand how much sacrifice Chao has made for me and how many times he brought the dejected me back to my feet again. He's just so gentle and understanding, so sweet and loving. He's perfect for me....

謝謝你對我無止境的付出

我真的無法再想像失去你的我會變成什麼樣子
我只知道….我真的很需要你 因為我真的很愛你~

你給的安慰讓我重新的站起來
你溫暖的擁抱給了我無比的安全感
你對我的信心讓我有勇起跟你一起走下去

謝謝你付出和犧牲的一切
能跟你在一起,我真的是世界上最幸福的人

"In my heart we'll never be apart
殘留手上的香味提醒我
在數位相機裡 留下的承諾
每 一封簡訊 傳出的思念 都對你說
사랑해요 means I love you
代表著我 離不開你
每分每秒 每一個聲音
只有你撒嬌 會讓我微笑
사랑해요 只對你說
I will love you and forevermore
我答應 baby you will see
每一個我 都屬於你
Oh baby I will love you because
我都屬於你" -林俊傑 只對你說

Love you always & forever~

YuMi

Just so we're clear, I love my life right now! If I can manage to block out all of the negative stuff (eg, assignments and a certain back-stabbing fag), then I think my life is just about perfect the way it is! I have my bubz, Angie~ who's so caring and understanding and always there just for me ^^. And I have a pair of loving parents, mummy and daddy (Shaunna & Alex) who are just perfect for each other, like 2 pieces of puzzles that fit together perfectly. And Darleen, the most spoiled person I know and overly obsessed with Asian boys, but she took me into her group when I thought I was all alone. Plus home ec buddies; Shelly, Doosh and Tash~ this might not be a good thing but I would never feel alone when I don't get my work done in Home ec xD. And last but not least, the most amazing and lovely boyfriend ever~~~ Chao! Who I just can't describe with words… loves me, protects me, cares about me… what more can I ask for? All of the names above are in no particular order~ I love you ALL!!!

These are the angels who made me who I am today, the happy and carefree me, the smiling and laughing me… and the assignments plus the fag~ You can all go die in a hole~!

Hmm…. There really was nothing I want to talk about in particular today~ how about I upload a photo of me that I photoshoped? You know, a little bit of makeup and photoshop can make small Asians eyes look much bigger? Go Google it, I bet you can find many results which are just absolutely hard to believe, they don't even look like the same person. Do realise makeup and photoshop can be a scary thing, if you see a really gorgeous girl somewhere I the internet~ she might not look as beautiful as she does on the photo… this is a easy trick even I can perform~ :P

Now I'll let you judge the before and after photo... please prepare yourself when you look at the before one... horrible, just horrible~~~ xP

For My most amazing boyfriend~ Chao <3

這麼多年了… 我們又分又合的演了好一陣子

雖然經過了這麼多的風風雨雨
走到這裡… 但是我覺得一切都是值得的

你在我心中留下許多的回憶… 有好有壞!

從認識你, 喜歡你,到愛上你. 我學會了很多事~

學會了牽你的手
緊抱你不放開

學會了依賴你
相信你

學會了牽掛你
擔心你會不會因為我的錯而受傷

但是
我學不會放下對你的感覺

不管有多麼煎熬
多麼痛苦

愛你是永遠不變的事實

喜歡呆呆的聽你罵我笨蛋

喜歡傻傻的聽你說: 你很奇怪耶~~~

喜歡你認真的眼神

喜歡你愛逞強的個性

你的好讓我發覺我已經不能沒有你

就算以後不能在一起

就算我們永遠分開了

我會記的我們說過的永遠…..永遠愛你

YuMi