Tuesday, November 10, 2009
♥ Gossips and rumours
Let’s admit it, we all do a little of gossiping at least once in our lives… but we sometimes don’t realise that we sometimes back stab as well. We talk behind some people’s back simply because we’re too afraid to say things to their face.
I never really thought about this issue until today. Well, unless you gossip like an old woman… you probably don’t realise it yourself either. So at the back of the bus the senior students were at it again, including me there were about 5 people in the conversation… and one of the person is a guy! The point is, we chitchatted like old women… = =”. The conversation basically ranged from a particular person to an f**ked up grade like ours… pretty much all the bad stuff if you ask me. After Darshana got off the stuff I found myself started to rant on about what happened between her and Michelle. The words just came out and I didn’t even think before I say them (well, Ben was too convincing). I swear I have 0% of ill-intention when I said those things… forgive me. And if you are reading this Charlie, I sincerely apologise about what I said about you being fragile >”<.
I also told 4 people (who I think were the only ones listening) that I’m going to do a certain ‘thing’. The news should get out pretty soon (or maybe it has already gotten out) about this event taking place pretty soon. I finally plucked up the courage to make this decision, yet I need more courage to put my decision in action. And maybe you don’t even know what I’m talking about but I don’t have enough time to explain the whole story… too long. Cheyenne is probably going to tell me how much effort her and Darleen had made to knock some sense into me (for Darleen, it was more of a physical knock). I lost count of those who were telling me to do this while I remained stubborn. I thought I was going to stick with my original decision but rumours just got way out of hand that I finally had enough. I have put up with enough bullshit and tolerated enough lies. If you ask my friends at school they’ll tell you that I’ve been hurt too much that I’ve already lost my mind. In a way, it is true. I chose to not to listen what other said they’ve seen, I usually don’t believe things until I see it for myself which is probably the reason why I chose to ignore all the rumours that built up each day. I think after a period of time people realised that it was pretty much no use trying to make me see what is really true.
Well, I can finally see it now and I know I’ve gotta stay tough. I’ve got enough people to back me up and give me courage… I’m not afraid anymore!
YuMi
I never really thought about this issue until today. Well, unless you gossip like an old woman… you probably don’t realise it yourself either. So at the back of the bus the senior students were at it again, including me there were about 5 people in the conversation… and one of the person is a guy! The point is, we chitchatted like old women… = =”. The conversation basically ranged from a particular person to an f**ked up grade like ours… pretty much all the bad stuff if you ask me. After Darshana got off the stuff I found myself started to rant on about what happened between her and Michelle. The words just came out and I didn’t even think before I say them (well, Ben was too convincing). I swear I have 0% of ill-intention when I said those things… forgive me. And if you are reading this Charlie, I sincerely apologise about what I said about you being fragile >”<.
I also told 4 people (who I think were the only ones listening) that I’m going to do a certain ‘thing’. The news should get out pretty soon (or maybe it has already gotten out) about this event taking place pretty soon. I finally plucked up the courage to make this decision, yet I need more courage to put my decision in action. And maybe you don’t even know what I’m talking about but I don’t have enough time to explain the whole story… too long. Cheyenne is probably going to tell me how much effort her and Darleen had made to knock some sense into me (for Darleen, it was more of a physical knock). I lost count of those who were telling me to do this while I remained stubborn. I thought I was going to stick with my original decision but rumours just got way out of hand that I finally had enough. I have put up with enough bullshit and tolerated enough lies. If you ask my friends at school they’ll tell you that I’ve been hurt too much that I’ve already lost my mind. In a way, it is true. I chose to not to listen what other said they’ve seen, I usually don’t believe things until I see it for myself which is probably the reason why I chose to ignore all the rumours that built up each day. I think after a period of time people realised that it was pretty much no use trying to make me see what is really true.
Well, I can finally see it now and I know I’ve gotta stay tough. I’ve got enough people to back me up and give me courage… I’m not afraid anymore!
YuMi
10:05 PM
