Tuesday, October 27, 2009
♥ O'NINE~!
This year went by so quick, but as fast as it may be it has been one of the most significant years that I’ve had. Of course, some of them will be good and some will be bad. Some will bring up the sad and depressing memories while others just remembering them make me want to laugh.
Of course most of you should know all the chaos that I’ve gone through with my relationship, sometimes I do wonder why I’m still standing on my 2 feet and still be able to be happy :/. I mean, my friend’s relationship with her boyfriend is way more complicated and chaotic than mine, so really I should feel grateful. At least I’ll always have someone there to support me when I need them to, nothing beats having friends who love you for who you are and doesn’t judge you =]. Clearly, you all know I went through a depression phase… you know, with all the not eating and waking up 4 o’clock in the morning to cry my eyes out. Now that I think about it, it’s kind of stupid*rolls eyes*. Not only did I make a mess of myself but I’ve affected those that are around me (sorry Doosh, Shelley, Charlie & Shaunna). More importantly, my grade was dragged down… = =”. I think my dad was at the edge of skinning me alive, I swear I’ve never seen him so pissed!
I must mention, this year’s birthday is like… the most momentous one yet. Mainly because ‘someone’ went to the office to publicize my birthday when I BEGGED him not to. If that ain’t awful enough, our deputy principal had to announce it AGAIN in front of the whole secondary in assembly. The person who went to announce it was basically laughing his head of. I also got scolded by my friends on that day for not telling them my birthday. All of this thanks to the super nice guy who decided to humiliates me in front of the whole school (not that anyone really cares :/). Even though my birthday was at the beginning of the year, I didn’t get my learners until the middle of the year… too lazy~~~! I’ve been driving for a couple of months now but I doubt my skill has improved for even a teeny weeny bit. In fact I think I’m getting worse each week, not my fault that I don’t have a Y chromosome. My leaner driver license will most likely expire before I can even go get my Ps … FAIL >”<. Driving isn’t my thing, mostly because I get panicky when I hit the main roads where there are a lot of cars around. And I also get totally get freaked out once I get up to gear 4, snail on the road~ =P. Fine~ I’ll admit I’m a big wuss, call me whatever you want just as long as you don’t make me drive on the high way where I don’t even want to imagine about going over 80km/hr. I’d rather catch a bus; I’ll catch buses for the rest of my life! It’s environmentally friendly too x].
Above all, being a grade 11 means a lot of school work and miss out on chances to catch up with friends. I miss my Angie babe who would always listen to my complaints, who would always be supporting me through all my peaks and troughs. I miss mummy Shaunna T^T, I miss having someone who is there to make me realise I’m not going through the worse (no offense). I miss my North Shore buddy now that everyone decides to ditch the Saturday afternoon Chemistry class which leaves a couple of VERY PRODUCTIVE students who spend the whole class either cutting up gummy bears and trying to give them showers or talking about topics that has absolutely nothing to do with chemistry. Mind you, I am considering quitting this subject… I ain’t smart enough for science and maths! And I miss the time being with ‘him’, everything was so just right… not so perfect now that things have revolutionized noticeably (I’m the dramatic one). Then again, I should never expect life to be all perfect and running smoothly. Quite frequently I thought I’m not just expecting the worse but I receive the worse… maybe that’s just what I deserve.
YuMi
Of course most of you should know all the chaos that I’ve gone through with my relationship, sometimes I do wonder why I’m still standing on my 2 feet and still be able to be happy :/. I mean, my friend’s relationship with her boyfriend is way more complicated and chaotic than mine, so really I should feel grateful. At least I’ll always have someone there to support me when I need them to, nothing beats having friends who love you for who you are and doesn’t judge you =]. Clearly, you all know I went through a depression phase… you know, with all the not eating and waking up 4 o’clock in the morning to cry my eyes out. Now that I think about it, it’s kind of stupid*rolls eyes*. Not only did I make a mess of myself but I’ve affected those that are around me (sorry Doosh, Shelley, Charlie & Shaunna). More importantly, my grade was dragged down… = =”. I think my dad was at the edge of skinning me alive, I swear I’ve never seen him so pissed!
I must mention, this year’s birthday is like… the most momentous one yet. Mainly because ‘someone’ went to the office to publicize my birthday when I BEGGED him not to. If that ain’t awful enough, our deputy principal had to announce it AGAIN in front of the whole secondary in assembly. The person who went to announce it was basically laughing his head of. I also got scolded by my friends on that day for not telling them my birthday. All of this thanks to the super nice guy who decided to humiliates me in front of the whole school (not that anyone really cares :/). Even though my birthday was at the beginning of the year, I didn’t get my learners until the middle of the year… too lazy~~~! I’ve been driving for a couple of months now but I doubt my skill has improved for even a teeny weeny bit. In fact I think I’m getting worse each week, not my fault that I don’t have a Y chromosome. My leaner driver license will most likely expire before I can even go get my Ps … FAIL >”<. Driving isn’t my thing, mostly because I get panicky when I hit the main roads where there are a lot of cars around. And I also get totally get freaked out once I get up to gear 4, snail on the road~ =P. Fine~ I’ll admit I’m a big wuss, call me whatever you want just as long as you don’t make me drive on the high way where I don’t even want to imagine about going over 80km/hr. I’d rather catch a bus; I’ll catch buses for the rest of my life! It’s environmentally friendly too x].
Above all, being a grade 11 means a lot of school work and miss out on chances to catch up with friends. I miss my Angie babe who would always listen to my complaints, who would always be supporting me through all my peaks and troughs. I miss mummy Shaunna T^T, I miss having someone who is there to make me realise I’m not going through the worse (no offense). I miss my North Shore buddy now that everyone decides to ditch the Saturday afternoon Chemistry class which leaves a couple of VERY PRODUCTIVE students who spend the whole class either cutting up gummy bears and trying to give them showers or talking about topics that has absolutely nothing to do with chemistry. Mind you, I am considering quitting this subject… I ain’t smart enough for science and maths! And I miss the time being with ‘him’, everything was so just right… not so perfect now that things have revolutionized noticeably (I’m the dramatic one). Then again, I should never expect life to be all perfect and running smoothly. Quite frequently I thought I’m not just expecting the worse but I receive the worse… maybe that’s just what I deserve.
YuMi
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